Getting Ready To Say Goodbye

Saturday, September 09, 2017 0 Comments A+ a-

Before I get into this properly, I'm going to give you a little background story for those who don't already know;

My boyfriend, James and I had started our relationship on a "long distance" basis - long distance to us is living in different cities, travelling over 2 hours via train and only seeing each other every other weekend. I don't know about you, but that ish cost money, but that's besides the point. We lived this way for about over a year and a half, until James did his placement year in London and this is when we lived together for over a year.

But that's all about to change in a few days from today, which James will be returning to university for his final year.

I know many people have will say 'it's only a few months' and yes that's true, but can you imagine, living with someone for over a year, not to mention recently coming back from our travels and spending 35 days straight together, to simply going back to seeing each other every other weekend?

Although one would think it'd be easier because 'we've done it before' but this is a whole other ball park, things have changed in between that and our bond has changed through the year of dealing and doing most things together.

Don't get me wrong, we agreed to do it this way. We have discussed about continuing to live together there but we felt for his final year it would be best to allow this time to focus on our future, for him his education and for me, starting my career.

No matter how much we will tell ourselves this is what we wanted, it will never fully prepare us for the time we have to say goodbye. Of course it's not forever (he's coming to London next week for our anniversary), of course it's not the end of the world but it won't be great - we'll be sad, I'll be sad.

It's going to suck saying goodbye, to leave, get on a train and know I won't be waking up to him every morning anymore.

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